Just when you thought everything is going according to plan, something crops up and it really kicks you right in the groin. The pain is so painful you just can't seem to get over it. But instead of feeling pain in the groin, I'm feeling a sharp pain in my heart.

She cancelled the date...

Then when I asked her again, she refused to answer me.

What on earth is going on?

Did I say something wrong?

All I wanted is for me to have some time to be with her. Just this once so that I can tell her how I feel.

Why can't I do that?

I want things to be like what it was last year. Where I get to see her sitting in front of me. Hear her voice and her laugh, see her beautiful smile and that sweet lookin' face. I miss her so badly that I cried every time I try to think of her. When I do that, I'll always remember the times we spent. Then my heart really start to feel painful and the regrets come pouring in. Sometimes it would get too overwhelming that it feels like there's no purpose in my life without her.

She changed my life for the better. We share the same interest. I feel comfortable around her. That's why she meant so much to me. Too bad I can't tell her that cos fate just won't allow me to do so.

I really want to get to know her more. I know she does'nt want to be in a relationship and I understand. I don't want to rush as well. So all I'm asking is for her to give me time so that we'll get to know each other more. If it works out, maybe then we could go to another level.

But somehow, it's impossible. She's just too hard to get.

Guess I'll see her in poly then. Hope she'll find someone better out there.

I'm not going to get pissed off. I can't force her to do something she would'nt like.

I think that's all. I'm just way too sad to say any more.

So goodnight.